The call to leadership is filled with many conflicting emotions: inspiration along with self-doubt, a sense of responsibility along with fear, the desire to grow and for things to change, along with a comfort in things staying exactly the same.
It has been an intense week for me personally, as I’ve experienced the mix of emotions of being called to the next step in my career, along with the profound sadness of leaving Kol Shofar – you are my community and the people who have become like family to me. I’ve cried a lot over this past week, thinking about how much you all mean to me and all that we have shared together over these past sixteen years.
In this week before Pesach, the call to greater leadership and responsibility has reminded me of Moses’s inner dialogue at the burning bush. When God sends him on his mission to go to Pharaoh and free the Israelite slaves, Moses is filled with self-doubt. He says, “Mi Anochi? Who am I to go to Pharaoh?” “What if the people don’t believe in me?” and “Please, God. Send someone else!” (Exodus 3-4)
Moses manages to take on the leadership role that he has been assigned. But with Pesach, we learn that ultimately it’s not about the leader. When we sit down to seder this week, we will notice that when we tell the story of our liberation, the hagadah never mentions Moses. The exodus is meant to be remembered as God’s bringing each of us out of slavery. At Pesach we celebrate the God of the burning bush whose name is revealed as Ehyeh Asher Ehyeh, that is, “the Power to change what is into what could be.” I wish you all a sweet and liberating Pesach, where we experience and celebrate the Divine power of transformation and change.